Expectations vs Reality

I already planned my future, but I'm not entirely sure whether I'm actually heading the right way. It ain't a problem though, when I've got my friends right beside me.

Curious cat is forever curious.

Good evening, readers (If I still had any. HAHA.) I'm sure some of you have noticed that I changed my typing style. IF you haven't, LOOK CLOSER. Haha. Firstly, I'd like to apologize for my unstable way of blogging. I can be active and inactive at times, really sorry about that. ^^"

Anyways, starting from today to the end of next week, my life has been split into 2 panels. Expectations vs Reality.

Now, I'm going through a really complicated situation, which I will disclose it here someday when it's safe to, and I felt the need to blog. And I just so happened to be a very happy girl today, because P happened. Big thanks to the rain. I don't know why, but I'm always the happiest during rainy days. When it's hot and sunny, I get really upset, but when it's raining, it's the exact opposite. It's like, the rain is my lucky charm. (:

Valentine's Day is next, next week and I haven't prepared anything yet. ^^" Oh well, that's expected.

Well, let's just hope my expectations don't get the bitter of me. Wish me lots of luck!

Now I know that I'm not,

All that you've got.

I guess that I,

I just thought maybe we could find new ways to fall apart.

events. (I)

i just wanna sample through my memories and magically turn them into strings of polaroids being held by pegs and be hung on top of my bed when i sleep.

picture's not mine, but it's exactly what i want.

hey readers. (if i had any, LOL) THOUSAND APOLOGIES for the lack of update. i promise to keep this blog alive, okay? you can hit me with a rake, step on my leg or push me into a lake. i wouldn't mind.

i have lots and lots to talk about, so i decided to split all "events" into parts. the first one is right here, "events. (I)"

i'll start it off with Nazzie's 21. 22/10

since it was also my uncle's birthday, we had two cakes. :>

hah. we look so worn out & tired.

cousins. ♥

cake-faced by Sis! funny thing was this was the only picture i had with her. apparently, the both of us were too busy entertaining the guests that we didn't take many pictures together.

friends were there too. (:

they ate & ate & ate BBQ food while i watched them. :< LOL.
we played UNO, arcade games & even primary school games, like "Mushroom". HAHAHA.
this is why i love them so much.

Neko. ♥

Horsey. ♥

Zafran. ♥

trust me, there are more messed up pictures we took. you can take a look at them in Nabee's & Qifang's photo albums on Facebook. (;

someday, i'll have a party too. it's gonna have a dress code too. and you gotta wear these to my party. HAHAHAHA.

you let me be, so i set you free.

wishery.

'cause i'm sure everyone has a tiny feeling of hope even at the darkest of times.

happy 11.11.11! i hope all of you have made your 11.11 wishes. am AND pm. (:

cute boy. ♥ i haz so much to talk about, but i shall save it for some other day.

soo, i had the weirdest yet awesomest triple11 day ever! it started off with my dream. i dreamt that i chatted with P on the internet and he suddenly said, "I f****** m!$$ t4lk!ng 2 y0u." yes, that was the exact way he typed it. pretty odd.

so i texted him at 11.11am with a "Happy 11.11.11, asshole." he replied back, 'I miss u". it turned out Huang Ying took his phone and sent me that. HAHAHA. oh, P. you gave me a heart attack there.

i had my O-level Chem SPA. oh yes, what a SPA treatment it was. to have teachers staring at your

every move. oh, this is the life. HAHAHA.

after school, i had a huge surprise! hahaha.

A gave that to me. even though i've only chatted with him through Twitter, he was so caring enough to surprise me. hehe. so sweet. ♥

rather than going out like all the others, i stayed at home with Mum & Nez. praise Allah for the rain.
oh, and i spend my late afternoon watching this...

absolutely love it! it got me laughing at certain parts, but most of the time, it was sirius. Dustin Hoffman was so dang cute, i swear. :3

and the whole movie was just filled with Simon & Garfunkel songs. had a wondrous time singing Sound Of Silence and Scarborough Fair over & over again~

in school, i literally hug every of my girl classmates & bid farewell to everyone. love my girlfs!

had a picture with Nadiah, dearest best friend since day 1 in CCSS. ♥

so, i'll stop here... oh, my AM wish was to pass O-levels with flying colours. LOLOL. K LAME.
my PM wish was that i wish well for my friends & family. ♥♥♥

are you going to scarborough fair?

parsely, sage, rosemary and thyme.

remember me to one who lives there.

she once was a true love of mine.

sleep-deprived.

you took a swing. i took it hard.

and down here from the ground, i see who you are.

can't remember when i took that one above. but it scares the schnizzles out of me. i mean, look at it. THERE'S A FREAKIN' FACE THERE.

GG cookies are always the best! :3
thanks Nut, Carol Pooh Bear & Shanny Leto. ♥

so, i've been studying my titties off for the past few days. brain lagging. eyes drooping. short temper. increasing hairfall. lip biting. teeth gritting. even pencil breaking (yes, i broke one of my pencils. LOL.)
i've never been this stressed since PSLE man.

oh, and my dearest seniors are gone. who knows? i might not be able to see them anymore. missing those amazing thespians already. :'(

heh. had these ears since i was 12 & i can'get sick of 'em.

catnap.

it's random stuffs like these that brightens up my day. it may be just colour pencils. but they seem more than that to me. to top it off, they're made of newspaper, NOT WOOD!

well, i'm not so stressed now. but i feel like puking because of Pure Chem. :'D but whatever.

gambatte, everyone! ;* ♥♥♥

once upon a time, i was falling in love.

now, i'm only falling apart.

surprises.

forgive me, as i forgave you long ago.

first and far most...
happy birthday to 2 of my dearest friends, Nadiah♥ & Zafran♥! love you both. ♥

so, anyways... i just lunched out at Harbourfront & flew around Vivo with parents & Nazzie. i hopped into Diva & bought a pair of necklaces for both Nadiah & myself. hope she'll love it. (;



i'll probably blog tomorrow, with a picture of the cute monster herself. ♥
and yea, i'll upload the Jalan Raya pictures too. have been so lazy to do anything.

P.S. Zafran looks attractive in that picture. i hope he doesn't kill me.
P.S.P.S. someone shoot me please. i'm getting too addicted to Fairy Tail. the show; the characters; the music. just, oh my gosh.

hope and a whole lot of believe.

one of my favourite days. ♥

so you see... i brought back what i want. a medal. :D
the position didn't matter. it was what i did. I RAN LIKE I NEVER RAN BEFORE.

anyways, i took le bus with Horsey♥ and we chatted. it was nice when you get to talk to someone alone. then, i ran for the first half with Grass♥. oh, how happy i was when we chatted. i missed her a lot. :(

i didn't get to run with Vanessa this year, but i managed to push her from behind everytime she walks. (:

so, here i am. smiling with glory. i deserve to be happy.

one of the days i left my cammie with Afi and she snaps a picture of Mr Helmi. LOL.

racial harmony competition. we did that.

and THAT. LOLWTF.

but that's our price. so yea... huge thanks to Bee, Myat, Grace and Hua Zhen for the design and such.

mah legs are cramp now, but it was definitely worth it. NEXT YEAR: TROPHY!!!! LOL! :D

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge,
My feet run out of ground?

invisible.

it's like i'm getting more invisible everyday.

this whole entire week was a killer. all i did was SCHOOL, SCHOOL AND SCHOOL. now i can see why Peter never attended school nor did he ever grew up.

anyways, went to JB with family & Beens today. ♥

uber tired. my eyes. my legs. my everything. i get tired too fast. really. :(

anyways, i doubt anyone reads this blog. that's why my nuffnang is 0 DOLLARS. oh, it's cool. it's cool.